gloomy thursdays, please go away...

in the middle of my colleague's hectic, i don't feel anything, i don't hear anything, i just don't care. my soul is crying out loud, wondering what has been happening and i just could not accept it. everything seems tasteless, not exciting anymore, days become so plain.i know that i have to wake up. only need a day for grieving. it 's just that i can't pretend and i can't lie to myself, that deep down i know that i haven't forgive. i don't know how, my heart is too hard and don't want to listen.